BalloonzForU
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My turn to share with my friends. I haven't participated here much lately, and now you'll know why.
First I'd like to thank Shanti for being so supportive this past week, and helping me get threw this mess I've gotten myself into.
Ok, here goes. As you know Scott Ashton and I started a relationship of sorts. He swept me off my feet, he can be very charming and knows all the right things to say. I should have seen all this coming, but I was blinded by my feelings, and very stupid. I knew he was married, I am practically myself, however he told me that his marriage was over as much as mine is.
After three months we decide to meet in person, spend the weekend at Hamburg together. (Yes I did a background check on him before meeting him) I get into Allentown, PA sometime around 9pm Friday and check into the hotel, he got there about 10:30pm. We spend Friday evening together and the better part of Saturday, I'll spare you the details, but it was truly beautiful. Before leaving for the show sometime around noon he says we need to talk. He tells me he's going to tell his wife all about us and that he's in love with me. You can imagine my surprise when he says next that he's going to ask for her forgiveness and try to make his marriage work. He told me he had to try fix what he had done to his wife over the past few years before he can even begin to think of having a life with me. I fell for it.
We ended up parting that day around 4pm after going to the show, out to eat, and both of us crying a lot. I fell asleep and got up after a few hours of sleep and called Derek (fedawg) to tell him what happened, I need to talk to someone that was friends with both Scott and I and knew what was going on. At this point Derek says he was afraid this was going to happen as Scott had done this before with someone else, about a year ago. (Damnit Derek why didn't you tell me?!?!?!) I now know who this person is and we've talked about what Scott did to both of us. I will not say who she is as we all know her, and she's only told a few people what happened and who it was.
I can get past all this and move on with my life, I'm a big girl, and I'm strong, at least I hope cause that's not all of it. There is a very good chance that I got pregnant over the weekend. We both new that I'd be ovulating just at the right time that it was a chance, and we put all caution to the wind. I've been sick to my stomach, and poor Shanti has been my coach telling me to repeat "I am not pregnant!" over and over again. Abortion is not an option for me as I just couldn't do it, so I'm stressing big time.
What also sucks is that I asked Scott to go to counseling with his wife two months ago, that I wanted him to make sure that it was over, and now they are going, at least that is what he's saying. I don't even know if he really told her about us, and about me poss being pregnant, as he said he did. We've talked either through emails, texting, chat and/or the phone every day this week, and I keep getting sucked right back into him. He keeps telling me it's not over for us and there is still hope that we will be together, he just needs time to sort out his marriage.
I feel like such an ass. I told him when all this started that I really felt bad about him being married, and that I refused to be the other woman, yet that is exactly what I end up being, and just another statistic. I fell for him hook line and sinker.
Now to wait and see if I'm pregnant.
It is over and I did tell him so tonight. I've got to let the healing start and move on.
Is it too late to become a nun?
First I'd like to thank Shanti for being so supportive this past week, and helping me get threw this mess I've gotten myself into.
Ok, here goes. As you know Scott Ashton and I started a relationship of sorts. He swept me off my feet, he can be very charming and knows all the right things to say. I should have seen all this coming, but I was blinded by my feelings, and very stupid. I knew he was married, I am practically myself, however he told me that his marriage was over as much as mine is.
After three months we decide to meet in person, spend the weekend at Hamburg together. (Yes I did a background check on him before meeting him) I get into Allentown, PA sometime around 9pm Friday and check into the hotel, he got there about 10:30pm. We spend Friday evening together and the better part of Saturday, I'll spare you the details, but it was truly beautiful. Before leaving for the show sometime around noon he says we need to talk. He tells me he's going to tell his wife all about us and that he's in love with me. You can imagine my surprise when he says next that he's going to ask for her forgiveness and try to make his marriage work. He told me he had to try fix what he had done to his wife over the past few years before he can even begin to think of having a life with me. I fell for it.
We ended up parting that day around 4pm after going to the show, out to eat, and both of us crying a lot. I fell asleep and got up after a few hours of sleep and called Derek (fedawg) to tell him what happened, I need to talk to someone that was friends with both Scott and I and knew what was going on. At this point Derek says he was afraid this was going to happen as Scott had done this before with someone else, about a year ago. (Damnit Derek why didn't you tell me?!?!?!) I now know who this person is and we've talked about what Scott did to both of us. I will not say who she is as we all know her, and she's only told a few people what happened and who it was.
I can get past all this and move on with my life, I'm a big girl, and I'm strong, at least I hope cause that's not all of it. There is a very good chance that I got pregnant over the weekend. We both new that I'd be ovulating just at the right time that it was a chance, and we put all caution to the wind. I've been sick to my stomach, and poor Shanti has been my coach telling me to repeat "I am not pregnant!" over and over again. Abortion is not an option for me as I just couldn't do it, so I'm stressing big time.
What also sucks is that I asked Scott to go to counseling with his wife two months ago, that I wanted him to make sure that it was over, and now they are going, at least that is what he's saying. I don't even know if he really told her about us, and about me poss being pregnant, as he said he did. We've talked either through emails, texting, chat and/or the phone every day this week, and I keep getting sucked right back into him. He keeps telling me it's not over for us and there is still hope that we will be together, he just needs time to sort out his marriage.
I feel like such an ass. I told him when all this started that I really felt bad about him being married, and that I refused to be the other woman, yet that is exactly what I end up being, and just another statistic. I fell for him hook line and sinker.
Now to wait and see if I'm pregnant.
It is over and I did tell him so tonight. I've got to let the healing start and move on.
Is it too late to become a nun?
